MEGHAN Markle revealed that she had “suicidal thoughts” as she broke down in tears during her bombshell interview with Oprah Winfrey.
The Duchess of Sussex revealed that after confessing her feelings to Prince Harry she forced herself to go to an event with Harry – because she felt she couldn’t be left alone, for fear of what she might do.
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She said while the lights were down during the Cirque du Soleil premiere at the Royal Albert Hall in January 2019, she was “weeping” while clutching Harry’s hand until his knuckles were white.
And now body language expert Judi James has revealed how photographs from that night reveal how the “protective” prince struggled to hide his feelings.
Speaking to Fabulous Digital, she said: “It was heart-breaking to hear how desperately sad Meghan really was when she appeared with Harry at the Royal Albert Hall and how she had to fake her smiles to mask bouts of tears when the lights went down.
“Her skills as an actress must have seen her through the displays of smiling confidence although given her narrative of the attitudes to news of her baby, that signature gentle and loving cradling of the baby bump could also be seen as something more protective.
“Harry did tend to be less skilled at hiding his feelings in public and while Meghan’s brave face includes some cheek-rounding smiles and active listening signals here.
“Harry’s body language suggests inner tension as he performs a one-handed barrier gesture plus a very rigid social smile that doesn’t look prompted by happiness.
“Harry also appears to have adopted a more protective pose with Meghan here, walking slightly ahead and leading her by the hand.
“His hand is on top in the clasp and the way her fingers are curled around his hand suggests some vulnerability.”
It comes as…
- Meghan claimed Kate made HER cry in row over flower girl dress
- Harry and Meghan married three days before their wedding at Windsor Castle
- Meghan said Archie wasn’t made a prince after talks about his skin colour
- Pregnant Meghan revealed she is expecting a GIRL
- The 39-year-old told Oprah the Queen was ‘always wonderful to me’
- Prince Harry said his brother is ‘trapped’ in the Royal Family
- A body language expert revealed Harry ‘suppressed anger’ when talking about being hurt by his family
- Meghan was apparently left gutted when the Queen would not let her and Harry live in a wing at Windsor Castle
- Archie’s favourite word is ‘hydrate’ the proud parents revealed
But while Meghan was able to mask her feelings for most of the evening, Judi says that eventually her true emotions became apparent as they left the event.
“Harry and Meghan’s smile-masks let them down when it came to covering their real emotions behind the scenes,” she said.
“Meghan’s normally confident, show-stopping smile has faded here, hinting that she is struggling to hide her real feelings in the way she described in her Oprah interview.”
The Duchess of Sussex, 39, who was six months pregnant at the time, revealed during the interview she would cry while the lights were down in the royal box before she would compose herself for the cameras and smile during the intervals.
Meghan revealed: “I was ashamed to say it at the time and ashamed to have to admit it to Harry because of how much loss he suffered.
“But I knew that if I didn’t say it I would do it – because I just didn’t want to be alive anymore.
“I didn’t want to be alive anymore. That was a very clear and real and frightening, constant thought.
“And I remember, I remember how he just cradled me.”
She later said Harry, 36, “saved” her by ultimately quitting the Royal Family.
