GREAT British Bake Off star Candice Brown has opened up about her battle with anxiety after being diagnosed with ADHD.
The 36-year-old star has admitted to suffering a “difficult, horrible year” after being diagnosed with the mental health disorder, enduring a heartbreaking split from her husband, and seeing her pub business devastated by the pandemic.
Candice shot to fame after winning Bake Off in 2016, but has struggled emotionally since – which she bravely reflects on in new book Happy Cooking, out now.
In the book, the TV favourite opens up about living with severe anxiety, explaining: “One of my first indicators of anxiety is my hands; I wring my hands, I fiddle with my rings, I tap and fidget even more than usual.
“I have to be doing something all the time — my attention span is bad at the best of times, but if I’m feeling anxious then the need to be busy is through the roof.
“Having recently been diagnosed with ADHD, a lot of this makes sense, as I just cannot sit still.
“My family and friends call me the Bumble Bee as I buzz around doing everything, but not actually doing much.
“I also get things done, just in my own time and way, often doing several other things along the way and having to be reminded to stay on task!
“So much at the moment brings on anxiety, whether it is worry, panic, not sleeping enough, intrusive thoughts or just the pressures of day-to-day life.
“This is something I have always spoken about — the calming feel and touch of food. Using my hands to create and take me to that happy place.”
Elsewhere, Candice bravely admits “mental health has nearly broken me”, adding: “I am laying myself bare, talking about things I’ve not really spoken about and quite frankly I am terrified.”
Almost 16million people watched as Candice lifted the Bake Off crown back on the BBC before the show’s move to Channel 4, but her life became incredibly harder shortly after.
She first started dating husband Liam Macauly, who has worked as a tree surgeon, in 2014 and they tied the knot in a secret ceremony in the South of France in October 2018.
But last summer it was revealed they had split up and he had moved out of their flat above her Green Man pub in Eversholt, Beds.
As lockdown restrictions hit pubs particularly hard, she was left with just £416 in her business account, all while struggling to make meals single-handedly for the pub’s food delivery service – though it was cooking that helped get her through a tough time mentally.
In her book, she writes: “My mental health is something I hadn’t really spoken about until fairly recently, but it is something I’ve been battling with for quite a few years.
“I have had days where I didn’t want to get out of bed, I’ve cancelled plans, not spoken to family and friends and felt completely useless.
