SISTER Wives’ Meri Brown is suffering through “hell” and “unimaginable pain” after her mom’s death and “split” from husband Kody.
Her mother’s death caught the reality TV star by surprise.
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In a painfully sad post, Meri gave fans a glimpse into what she is currently going through as she shared the funeral program from her mother’s memorial.
“One week ago, just seven days, since I got the heartbreaking call. Seven days of hell, of unimaginable pain, of chaos and confusion. Seven days of more tears than I thought were in me. Seven days of wondering, what do I do now?” her post began.
“She always told me, when I get the call, I will go, it will be immediate and without warning. She didn’t lie.
“There was so much left undone. So many things she knew that I don’t. So many questions unanswered.
“I don’t know how to do this, how to move through the immense grief. This was NOT in my plan, she was supposed to be here so much longer.
“I can only hope that since God had a plan for her, he has one for me as well. Because I feel so lost. They say the pain doesn’t last forever, that God provides strength to carry the pain and endure the grief. I’m still waiting for that. Because right now I don’t feel strong. And I usually am.
“She was a light, a safe place, to all who knew her, and even to those who didn’t. Her life was truly centered on Christ, more than any person I’ve ever known. She was a giver, her home always a refuge, her arms always ready to give a hug.
“I miss my mom. I miss my rock.”
Meri’s raw post about her mom comes just one day after The Celeb Report spotted the Sister Wives family gathering for Bonnie’s funeral.
The family arrived at the service on Wednesday as Meri, 50, was seen in a bright yellow dress as the rest of the guests wore all black or darker tones.
She attended the viewing of the body that took place in the morning and according to the insider, left the building to walk out to her car before the official service began.
Meri was seen applying “a lot” of hairspray as she fixed her makeup at her car.
Although she has longtime martial problems with Kody, 52, the reality star was still wearing her wedding ring.
The eyewitness insisted that while the energy of the event was understandably “very solemn,” Kody was seen appearing “energetic” and “chatty” with fellow gatherers.
“He wasn’t reading the room,” it was said of the sad day.
Despite Meri mourning the death of her mother, Kody’s attention appeared to be mainly on his wife, Janelle.
At one point during the event, Janelle is seen grabbing Kody’s arm to pull him into her.
As he kept his hands in his pocket, the two shared a kiss in the parking lot of the chapel.
The source who was present noted that Kody and Meri had “hardly” any interaction and seemed distant.
Though the couple – who have been married since 1990 – have had “heated issues” recently, Meri vowed she will “not the one who is going to give up” on her marriage to Kody.
She previously said they are “in a place where we’re just figuring out where we are and, you know, what is happening” as divorce speculation runs rampant.
Meri and Kody’s daughter, Mariah Brown and her fiancee, Audrey, appeared to have chopped off their locks as their new hairdo was much shorter.
According to a bystander, the couple kept the masks on “the entire time.”
Following the funeral service, the group drove together to drop the casket into the ground.
Though the quiet scene was an overall grim mood, the informant said that Kody continued to talk to those nearby him.
Last week, Meri confirmed on Instagram that her mom, Bonnie Ahlstrom, died at the age of 76.
Bonnie made several appearances on the the popular reality show, and also help run Meri’s bed and breakfast, Lizzie’s Heritage Inn.
As she shared a picture of her Mom, Meri wrote in the emotional caption: “76 years and 17 days was not enough time for the world to feel the beautiful spirit of this beautiful woman.
“This woman whose life mission was to give, to love, to serve. This woman who only knew how to do for others.
“This woman who would drop everything for you. This woman who was strong, resilient, compassionate.
“This woman who was a safe place to land, no matter where, no matter when. This woman, this beautiful woman, my mom.”
The Sister Wives star went on to tell her followers how Bonnie had passed away unexpectedly and “way too soon.”
Meri continued: “She left us suddenly, unexpected, and extremely way too soon and I literally don’t know how I’m going to do the rest of my life without her.
“Mom, I love you beyond the words I can express here, but I know you know that.”
