SISTER Wives’ troubled Meri Brown poured out her heart admitting she’d suffered “another rough night” and had been “overloading” her brain amid marital strife with husband Kody.
The TV couple said I Do in 1990 and divorced in 2014, to allow polygamist Kody, 52, to legally marry his second wife Robyn and adopt her three children – yet they remain spiritually married.
After revealing they had finally called time on their 30-year relationship last year, they made a U-Turn and stayed together.
Since then, the coronavirus pandemic brought on extra woes and they were forced to spend a lot of time apart.
Fans recently pleaded for Meri, 50, to leave Kody when he refused to kiss her for the new show trailer earlier this month, and it appears things have not improved in the Brown household.
The TLC star took to her Instagram page to upload a sorry-looking selfie showing her staring straight at the camera.
Meri wore a striped top and a full face of make-up for the snap, yet the cosmetics could not hide her sadness.
In a lengthy caption she revealed the reason for her less than chirpy start to the day and wrote: “Here I am. After another long and rough night of insomnia.
“Here I am. After overloading my brain with thoughts and ideas and visions and excitement for my businesses and my future.
“Here I am. After my morning workout that wasn’t my best ever, lunges and squats not quite so deep, longer breaks between sets, and calming Simon & Garfunkel sounds rather than more booming motivational sounds.
“Here I am. Showing up, doing the things even though my body is slow today. Doing my today’s best, knowing it’s different from yesterday’s best, and what will be tomorrow’s best.
“Here I am. Excited for things to come and excited to make them happen.”
Meri’s followers were quick to offer up their supportive comments, with one writing: “You go girl!!! One day at a time!
” as another put: “You are stronger than you think
.”
One then gushed: “Keep it up. You are doing great! And know you can have off days. Hang in there Meri. Im rooting for you!”
Season 10 of Sister Wives premieres on Valentine’s Day, but the new TLC promo shows that Kody and Meri might no longer be in love, perhaps shedding light on her sleeping struggles.
Meri’s trying to keep the marriage alive with a little picnic outside together, but it’s not going quite as planned.
Trying to get to the bottom of just how bad their relationship has gotten, she asked him: “So if I were to lean over and kiss you right now, would you push me away?”
Kody seemed hesitant and unsure as he laughed uncomfortably and responded: “Um no…”
He then said in his confessional: “Romance and sex are saved for people who are in love. If Meri and I really wanted to be together, we would.”
Meri could then be seen wiping her tears as she stared at her husband.
This moment made Sister Wives fans “cringe so much” because of how uncomfortable and awkward Kody and Meri look together, despite having been married for 30 years.
Meri has been sparking split rumors from Kody, who shares 18 children with his four wives, in recent years by not wearing her wedding ring and posting cryptic quotes on social media.
In addition to Meri, Kody is married to Janelle, 50, Christine, 48, and Robyn, 42.
Their marital problems seemingly began when Kody divorced Meri in 2014 to be able to legally marry Robyn so he could adopt her children from a previous marriage.
After witnessing the painful trailer fans were quick to point out Kody would still have three other Sister Wives if Meri left him for another life path.
She has recently further fuelled speculation of their split by stepping out without her wedding ring.
Meri also recently posted a cryptic comment to her Instagram page shortly after Kody shunned her advances, which read: “Don’t treat people the way they treat you.”