MACI Bookout has suffered serious Post Traumatic Stress after encountering a gas station shooting, where she felt her life was coming to an end.
The Teen Mom OG star opened up further about her trauma in Tuesday’s episode of the show, while out to dinner with friends.
Maci, 29, has not been coping well since the terrifying incident, as she explained her fear every time she hears a sound similar to a gunshot.
The reality star felt like she was “going to die” during the gas station shooting, and has still not recovered.
The TV star’s husband, Taylor McKinney, surprised her with a fun evening with friends during the episode, after claiming that the family was going out to dinner.
While at the restaurant table, one of Maci’s friends asked the mom of three: “Are you going to see anybody or talk to anybody about what happened to you at the gas station?”
“Yep. Once a week,” she admitted, as her friends inquired: “Do you want to talk about it?”
“I can’t do sounds. Anything that is remotely related to sounding like a gunshot or a pop or anything is not good whatsoever,” she confessed.
“That’s like true PTSD. Your body and your mind will go back exactly to where you were. Your psyche can take you there so quick.
“Y’all know me. There ain’t s**t that scares me. I legitimately thought I was going to f**king die. I thought this is how is f**king ends,” she admitted in tears.
“I just want to be able to handle it.”
“The nightmares are bad. They’re really bad,” she added, before detailing a specific dream where she pictured her oldest son Bentley, 12, in the car at the gas station during the shooting.
“It was awful. Like full f**king blown, woke up like couldn’t breathe, panic attack, legit.”
“I’m not sure when I’ll ever be able to go into a gas station. It’s hard.”
Not only has Maci faced issues in the aftermath of the shooting, but she’s also been in an all-out battle with Bentley’s father, Ryan Edwards.
Last week, Ryan, his wife Mackenzie, and his parents, Jen and Larry, were fired from Teen Mom.
The couple has endured an ongoing feud with Maci over the years, and a source recently revealed that the young mom asked production to remove Ryan’s involvement.
The controversial father spoke to The Celeb Report about his release, revealing: “Maci is in fear that my mom and dad will start telling the truth.
“She will always fight to have us off the show. MTV does not really stand for anything we believe in or support.”
Ryan also claimed that he is “unbothered” by his firing, explaining: “I really haven’t given MTV much thought now that I have my own fabrication shop.”
Ryan’s father Larry, who regularly appeared on the MTV program, was the first to come forward with the choice, sharing with The Celeb Report: “We, the family have been let go from the show by the network. It’s unbelievable.”
An insider told The Ashley’s Reality Roundup: “The Edwards were informed that Maci’s reps wanted to go a different direction and showcase all of her abilities.
“Maci went to production and explained she wanted her story to cover all the parts of her life and no longer focus on Ryan and his family.”