TEMPTATION Island’s Kate Griffith says her life “hit rock bottom” after boyfriend David Benavidez’s threesome with two love rivals aired on TV.
The American reality show, which was filmed two years ago, is currently being shown in the UK for the first time on E4.
Temptation Island follows the lives of several couples who agree to move in with a group of singles to try and test their relationship.
Last night viewers of the hit show were left horrified when the episode of David’s wild threesome aired on TV.
And now Kate – who was in a relationship with the sales executive for nearly two years when they took part – is speaking out about the physiological impact the programme had on her.
She told The Confident Woman podcast: “I came back home and was probably the most unhappy I have ever been.
“It was kind of like my rock bottom. I had left a job to go on this reality TV show, so I came back and I had no career at that point, I had… my relationship – we broke up on national television – and then all you can think about in your head is you had all these people and now you are super lonely and now you really are in your head and really in your feelings.
“Then on top of that you know that everything you just did on TV or on camera is now going to be on TV in a couple of months.”
She admitted that she was worried to watch back the series, but when she did, she could hardly recognise herself.
Kate added: “I was scared s***less to watch myself back, but, watching myself back is also when I was like, ‘Wow, I’m not living my authentic life.’
“Even going on the show was not living my authentic life. That is not something that is part of my life purpose or any goal to be on a reality TV show and for that matter a dating show where you’re not even dating your partner. You’re dating other people!
“I just watched myself and I was like, ‘That’s not you. That’s not your soul.’ It was really hard for me to watch back.”
Kate was in a long distance relationship with David for a year before she decided to move from Miami to New Jersey to further their relationship.
After living with each other for eight months, they took part in the fifth season of the show, which was filmed in Hawaii.
But it wasn’t easy to get her to agree to take part in the first place because her anxiety had taken over.
She said: “There was a little manipulation to get me there. I even tried to back out right before.
“Maybe like a week before we were supposed to meet for the show.
“I was having so much anxiety I wasn’t sleeping. I called the producers and said I’m not going on the show. Find your alternate. That was not happening.”
At the end of last night’s episode viewers got a snippet of Kate’s reaction to her boyfriend’s infidelity.
Kate gasped while watching the clip of David and commented: “It’s a different girl?”
Shortly after she saw David get into bed with two other girls.
Kate was left fuming and the other girls beside her were also evidently shocked at what they’ve just seen.
Temptation Island continues next Monday at 10pm on E4.
